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JANE EYRE - CHAPTER XII

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      THE promise of a smooth career, which my first calm introduction to

      Thornfield Hall seemed to pledge, was not belied on a longer

      acquaintance with the place and its inmates. Mrs. Fairfax turned out

      to be what she appeared, a placid-tempered, kind-natured woman, of

      competent education and average intelligence. My pupil was a lively

      child, who had been spoilt and indulged, and therefore was sometimes

      wayward; but as she was committed entirely to my care, and no

      injudicious interference from any quarter ever thwarted my plans for

      her improvement, she soon forgot her little freaks, and became

      obedient and teachable. She had no great talents, no marked traits

      of character, no peculiar development of feeling or taste which raised

      her one inch above the ordinary level of childhood; but neither had

      she any deficiency or vice which sunk her below it. She made

      reasonable progress, entertained for me a vivacious, though perhaps

      not very profound, affection; and by her simplicity, gay prattle,

      and efforts to please, inspired me, in return, with a degree of

      attachment sufficient to make us both content in each other's society.

      This, par parenthese, will be thought cool language by persons

      who entertain solemn doctrines about the angelic nature of children,

      and the duty of those charged with their education to conceive for

      them an idolatrous devotion: but I am not writing to flatter

      parental egotism, to echo cant, or prop up humbug; I am merely telling

      the truth. I felt a conscientious solicitude for Adele's welfare and

      progress, and a quiet liking for her little self: just as I

      cherished towards Mrs. Fairfax a thankfulness for her kindness, and

      a pleasure in her society proportionate to the tranquil regard she had

      for me, and the moderation of her mind and character.

      Anybody may blame me who likes, when I add further, that, now and

      then, when I took a walk by myself in the grounds; when I went down to

      the gates and looked through them along the road; or when, while Adele

      played with her nurse, and Mrs. Fairfax made jellies in the storeroom,

      I climbed the three staircases, raised the trap-door of the attic, and

      having reached the leads, looked out afar over sequestered field and

      hill, and along dim sky-line- that then I longed for a power of vision

      which might overpass that limit; which might reach the busy world,

      towns, regions full of life I had heard of but never seen- that then I

      desired more of practical experience than I possessed; more of

      intercourse with my kind, of acquaintance with variety of character,

      than was here within my reach. I valued what was good in Mrs. Fairfax,

      and what was good in Adele; but I believed in the existence of other

      and more vivid kinds of goodness, and what I believed in I wished to

      behold.

      Who blames me? Many, no doubt; and I shall be called

      discontented. I could not help it: the restlessness was in my

      nature; it agitated me to pain sometimes. Then my sole relief was to

      walk along the corridor of the third storey, backwards and forwards,

      safe in the silence and solitude of the spot, and allow my mind's

      eye to dwell on whatever bright visions rose before it- and,

      certainly, they were many and glowing; to let my heart be heaved by

      the exultant movement, which, while it swelled it in trouble, expanded

      it with life; and, best of all, to open my inward ear to a tale that

      was never ended- a tale my imagination created, and narrated

      continuously; quickened with all of incident, life, fire, feeling,

      that I desired and had not in my actual existence.

      It is in vain to say human beings ought to be satisfied with

      tranquillity: they must have action; and they will make it if they

      cannot find it. Millions are condemned to a stiller doom than mine,

      and millions are in silent revolt against their lot. Nobody knows

      how many rebellions besides political rebellions ferment in the masses

      of life which people earth. Women are supposed to be very calm

      generally: but women feel just as men feel; they need exercise for

      their faculties, and a field for their efforts, as much as their

      brothers do; they suffer from too rigid a restraint, too absolute a

      stagnation, precisely as men would suffer; and it is narrow-minded

      in their more privileged fellow-creatures to say that they ought to

      confine themselves to making puddings and knitting stockings, to

      playing on the piano and embroidering bags. It is thoughtless to

      condemn them, or laugh at them, if they seek to do more or learn

      more than custom has pronounced necessary for their sex.

      When thus alone, I not unfrequently heard Grace Poole's laugh:

      the same peal, the same low, slow ha! ha! which, when first heard, had

      thrilled me: I heard, too, her eccentric murmurs; stranger than her

      laugh. There were days when she was quite silent; but there were

      others when I could not account for the sounds she made. Sometimes I

      saw her: she would come out of her room with a basin, or a plate, or a

      tray in her hand, go down to the kitchen and shortly return, generally

      (oh, romantic reader, forgive me for telling the plain truth!) bearing

      a pot of porter. Her appearance always acted as a damper to the

      curiosity raised by her oral oddities: hard-featured and staid, she

      had no point to which interest could attach. I made some attempts to

      draw her into conversation, but she seemed a person of few words: a

      monosyllabic reply usually cut short every effort of that sort.

      The other members of the household, viz., John and his wife, Leah

      the housemaid, and Sophie the French nurse, were decent people; but in

      no respect remarkable; with Sophie I used to talk French, and

      sometimes I asked her questions about her native country; but she

      was not of a descriptive or narrative turn, and generally gave such

      vapid and confused answers as were calculated rather to check than

      encourage inquiry.

      October, November, December passed away. One afternoon in

      January, Mrs. Fairfax had begged a holiday for Adele, because she

      had a cold; and, as Adele seconded the request with an ardour that

      reminded me how precious occasional holidays had been to me in my

      own childhood, I accorded it, deeming that I did well in showing

      pliability on the point. It was a fine, calm day, though very cold;

      I was tired of sitting still in the library through a whole long

      morning: Mrs. Fairfax had just written a letter which was waiting to

      be posted, so I put on my bonnet and cloak and volunteered to carry it

      to Hay; the distance, two miles, would be a pleasant winter

      afternoon walk. Having seen Adele comfortably seated in her little

      chair by Mrs. Fairfax's parlour fireside, and given her her best wax

      doll (which I usually kept enveloped in silver paper in a drawer) to

      play with, and a story-book for a change of amusement; and having

      replied to her 'Revenez bientot, ma bonne amie, ma chere Mdlle.

      Jeannette,' with a kiss I set out.

      The ground was hard, the air was still, my road was lonely; I

      walked fast till I got warm, and then I walked slowly to enjoy and

      analyse the species of pleasure brooding for me in the hour and

      situation. It was three o'clock; the church bell tolled as I passed

      under the belfry: the charm of the hour lay in its approaching

      dimness, in the low-gliding and pale-beaming sun. I was a mile from

      Thornfield, in a lane noted for wild roses in summer, for nuts and

      blackberries in autumn, and even now possessing a few coral

      treasures in hips and haws, but whose best winter delight lay in its

      utter solitude and leafless repose. If a breath of air stirred, it

      made no sound here; for there was not a holly, not an evergreen to

      rustle, and the stripped hawthorn and hazel bushes were as still as

      the white, worn stones which causewayed the middle of the path. Far

      and wide, on each side, there were only fields, where no cattle now

      browsed; and the little brown birds, which stirred occasionally in the

      hedge, looked like single russet leaves that had forgotten to drop.

      This lane inclined up-hill all the way to Hay; having reached the

      middle, I sat down on a stile which led thence into a field. Gathering

      my mantle about me, and sheltering my hands in my muff, I did not feel

      the cold, though it froze keenly; as was attested by a sheet of ice

      covering the causeway, where a little brooklet, now congealed, had

      overflowed after a rapid thaw some days since. From my seat I could

      look down on Thornfield: the grey and battlemented hall was the

      principal object in the vale below me; its woods and dark rookery rose

      against the, west. I lingered till the sun went down amongst the

      trees, and sank crimson and clear behind them. I then turned eastward.

      On the hill-top above me sat the rising moon; pale yet as a

      cloud, but brightening momentarily, she looked over Hay, which, half

      lost in trees, sent up a blue smoke from its few chimneys: it was

      yet a mile distant, but in the absolute hush I could hear plainly

      its thin murmurs of life. My ear, too, felt the flow of currents; in

      what dales and depths I could not tell: but there were many hills

      beyond Hay, and doubtless many becks threading their passes. That

      evening calm betrayed alike the tinkle of the nearest streams, the

      sough of the most remote.

      A rude noise broke on these fine ripplings and whisperings, at once

      so far away and so clear: a positive tramp, tramp, a metallic clatter,

      which effaced the soft wave-wanderings; as, in a picture, the solid

      mass of a crag, or the rough boles of a great oak, drawn in dark and

      strong on the foreground, efface the aerial distance of azure hill,

      sunny horizon, and blended clouds where tint melts into tint.

      The din was on the causeway: a horse was coming; the windings of

      the lane yet hid it, but it approached. I was just leaving the

      stile; yet, as the path was narrow, I sat still to let it go by. In

      those days I was young, and all sorts of fancies bright and dark

      tenanted my mind: the memories of nursery stories were there amongst

      other rubbish; and when they recurred, maturing youth added to them

      a vigour and vividness beyond what childhood could give. As this horse

      approached, and as I watched for it to appear through the dusk, I

      remembered certain of Bessie's tales, wherein figured a

      North-of-England spirit called a 'Gytrash,' which, in the form of

      horse, mule, or large dog, haunted solitary ways, and sometimes came

      upon belated travellers, as this horse was now coming upon me.

      It was very near, but not yet in sight; when, in addition to the

      tramp, tramp, I heard a rush under the hedge, and close down by the

      hazel stems glided a great dog, whose black and white colour made

      him a distinct object against the trees. It was exactly one form of

      Bessie's Gytrash- a lion-like creature with long hair and a huge head:

      it passed me, however, quietly enough; not staying to look up, with

      strange pretercanine eyes, in my face, as I half expected it would.

      The horse followed,- a tall steed, and on its back a rider. The man,

      the human being, broke the spell at once. Nothing ever rode the

      Gytrash: it was always alone; and goblins, to my notions, though

      they might tenant the dumb carcasses of beasts, could scarce covet

      shelter in the commonplace human form. No Gytrash was this,- only a

      traveller taking the short cut to Millcote. He passed, and I went

      on; a few steps, and I turned: a sliding sound and an exclamation of

      'What the deuce is to do now?' and a clattering tumble, arrested my

      attention. Man and horse were down; they had slipped on the sheet of

      ice which glazed the causeway. The dog came bounding back, and

      seeing his master in a predicament, and hearing the horse groan,

      barked till the evening hills echoed the sound, which was deep in

      proportion to his magnitude. He snuffed round the prostrate group, and

      then he ran up to me; it was all he could do,- there was no other help

      at hand to summon. I obeyed him, and walked down to the traveller,

      by this time struggling himself free of his steed. His efforts were so

      vigorous, I thought he could not be much hurt; but I asked him the

      question-

      'Are you injured, sir?'

      I think he was swearing, but am not certain; however, he was

      pronouncing some formula which prevented him from replying to me

      directly.

      'Can I do anything?' I asked again.

      'You must just stand on one side,' he answered as he rose, first to

      his knees, and then to his feet. I did; whereupon began a heaving,

      stamping, clattering process, accompanied by a barking and baying

      which removed me effectually some yards' distance; but I would not

      be driven quite away till I saw the event. This was finally fortunate;

      the horse was re-established, and the dog was silenced with a 'Down,

      Pilot!' The traveller now, stooping, felt his foot and leg, as if

      trying whether they were sound; apparently something ailed them, for

      he halted to the stile whence I had just risen, and sat down.

      I was in the mood for being useful, or at least officious, I think,

      for I now drew near him again.

      'If you are hurt, and want help, sir, I can fetch some one either

      from Thornfield Hall or from Hay.'

      'Thank you: I shall do: I have no broken bones,- only a sprain;'

      and again he stood up and tried his foot, but the result extorted an

      involuntary 'Ugh!'

      Something of daylight still lingered, and the moon was waxing

      bright: I could see him plainly. His figure was enveloped in a

      riding cloak, fur collared and steel clasped; its details were not

      apparent, but I traced the general points of middle height and

      considerable breadth of chest. He had a dark face, with stern features

      and a heavy brow; his eyes and gathered eyebrows looked ireful and

      thwarted just now; he was past youth, but had not reached

      middle-age; perhaps he might be thirty-five. I felt no fear of him,

      and but little shyness. Had he been a handsome, heroic-looking young

      gentleman, I should not have dared to stand thus questioning him

      against his will, and offering my services unasked. I had hardly

      ever seen a handsome youth; never in my life spoken to one. I had a

      theoretical reverence and homage for beauty, elegance, gallantry,

      fascination; but had I met those qualities incarnate in masculine

      shape, I should have known instinctively that they neither had nor

      could have sympathy with anything in me, and should have shunned

      them as one would fire, lightning, or anything else that is bright but

      antipathetic.

      If even this stranger had smiled and been good-humoured to me

      when I addressed him; if he had put off my offer of assistance gaily

      and with thanks, I should have gone on my way and not felt any

      vocation to renew inquiries: but the frown, the roughness of the

      traveller, set me at my ease: I retained my station when he waved to

      me to go, and announced-

      'I cannot think of leaving you, sir, at so late an hour, in this

      solitary lane, till I see you are fit to mount your horse.'

      He looked at me when I said this; he had hardly turned his eyes

      in my direction before.

      'I should think you ought to be at home yourself,' said he, 'if you

      have a home in this neighbourhood: where do you come from?'

      'From just below; and I am not at all afraid of being out late when

      it is moonlight: I will run over to Hay for you with pleasure, if

      you wish it: indeed, I am going there to post a letter.'

      'You live just below- do you mean at that house with the

      battlements?' pointing to Thornfield Hall, on which the moon cast a

      hoary gleam, bringing it out distinct and pale from the woods, that,

      by contrast with the western sky, now seemed one mass of shadow.

      'Yes, sir.'

      'Whose house is it?'

      'Mr. Rochester's.'

      'Do you know Mr. Rochester?'

      'No, I have never seen him.'

      'He is not resident, then?'

      'No.'

      'Can you tell me where he is?'

      'I cannot.'

      'You are not a servant at the hall, of course. You are-' He

      stopped, ran his eye over my dress, which, as usual, was quite simple:

      a black merino cloak, a black beaver bonnet; neither of them half fine

      enough for a lady's-maid. He seemed puzzled to decide what I was; I

      helped him.

      'I am the governess.'

      'Ah, the governess!' he repeated; 'deuce take me, if I had not

      forgotten! The governess!' and again my raiment underwent scrutiny. In

      two minutes he rose from the stile: his face expressed pain when he

      tried to move.

      'I cannot commission you to fetch help,' he said; 'but you may help

      me a little yourself, if you will be so kind.'

      'Yes, sir.'

      'You have not an umbrella that I can use as a stick?'

      'No.'

      'Try to get hold of my horse's bridle and lead him to me: you are

      not afraid?'

      I should have been afraid to touch a horse when alone, but when

      told to do it, I was disposed to obey. I put down my muff on the

      stile, and went up to the tall steed; I endeavoured to catch the

      bridle, but it was a spirited thing, and would not let me come near

      its head; I made effort on effort, though in vain: meantime, I was

      mortally afraid of its trampling forefeet. The traveller waited and

      watched for some time, and at last he laughed.

      'I see,' he said, 'the mountain will never be brought to Mahomet,

      so all you can do is to aid Mahomet to go to the mountain; I must

      beg of you to come here.'

      I came. 'Excuse me,' he continued: 'necessity compels me to make

      you useful.' He laid a heavy hand on my shoulder, and leaning on me

      with some stress, limped to his horse. Having once caught the

      bridle, he mastered it directly and sprang to his saddle; grimacing

      grimly as he made the effort, for it wrenched his sprain.

      'Now,' said he, releasing his under lip from a hard bite, 'just

      hand me my whip; it lies there under the hedge.'

      I sought it and found it.

      'Thank you; now make haste with the letter to Hay, and return as

      fast as you can.'

      A touch of a spurred heel made his horse first start and rear,

      and then bound away; the dog rushed in his traces; all three vanished,



      'Like heath that, in the wilderness,

      The wild wind whirls away.'

      I took up my muff and walked on. The incident had occurred and

      was gone for me: it was an incident of no moment, no romance, no

      interest in a sense; yet it marked with change one single hour of a

      monotonous life. My help had been needed and claimed; I had given

      it: I was pleased to have done something; trivial, transitory though

      the deed was, it was yet an active thing, and I was weary of an

      existence all passive. The new face, too, was like a new picture

      introduced to the gallery of memory; and it was dissimilar to all

      the others hanging there: firstly, because it was masculine; and,

      secondly, because it was dark, strong, and stern. I had it still

      before me when I entered Hay, and slipped the letter into the

      post-office; I saw it as I walked fast down-hill all the way home.

      When I came to the stile, I stopped a minute, looked round and

      listened, with an idea that a horse's hoofs might ring on the causeway

      again, and that a rider in a cloak, and a Gytrash-like Newfoundland

      dog, might be again apparent: I saw only the hedge and a pollard

      willow before me, rising up still and straight to meet the

      moonbeams; I heard only the faintest waft of wind roaming fitful among

      the trees round Thornfield, a mile distant; and when I glanced down in

      the direction of the murmur, my eye, traversing the hall-front, caught

      a light kindling in a window: it reminded me that I was late, and I

      hurried on.

      I did not like re-entering Thornfield. To pass its threshold was to

      return to stagnation; to cross the silent hall, to ascend the darksome

      staircase, to seek my own lonely little room, and then to meet

      tranquil Mrs. Fairfax, and spend the long winter evening with her, and

      her only, was to quell wholly the faint excitement wakened by my

      walk,- to slip again over my faculties the viewless fetters of an

      uniform and too still existence; of an existence whose very privileges

      of security and ease I was becoming incapable of appreciating. What

      good it would have done me at that time to have been tossed in the

      storms of an uncertain struggling life, and to have been taught by

      rough and bitter experience to long for the calm amidst which I now

      repined! Yes, just as much good as it would do a man tired of

      sitting still in a 'too easy chair' to take a long walk: and just as

      natural was the wish to stir, under my circumstances, as it would be

      under his.

      I lingered at the gates; I lingered on the lawn; I paced

      backwards and forwards on the pavement; the shutters of the glass door

      were closed; I could not see into the interior; and both my eyes and

      spirit seemed drawn from the gloomy house- from the grey hollow filled

      with rayless cells, as it appeared to me- to that sky expanded

      before me,- a blue sea absolved from taint of cloud; the moon

      ascending it in solemn march; her orb seeming to look up as she left

      the hill-tops, from behind which she had come, far and farther below

      her, and aspired to the zenith, midnight dark in its fathomless

      depth and measureless distance; and for those trembling stars that

      followed her course; they made my heart tremble, my veins glow when

      I viewed them. Little things recall us to earth; the clock struck in

      the hall; that sufficed; I turned from moon and stars, opened a

      side-door, and went in.

      The hall was not dark, nor yet was it lit, only by the high-hung

      bronze lamp; a warm glow suffused both it and the lower steps of the

      oak staircase. This ruddy shine issued from the great dining-room,

      whose two-leaved door stood open, and showed a genial fire in the

      grate, glancing on marble hearth and brass fire-irons, and revealing

      purple draperies and polished furniture, in the most pleasant

      radiance. It revealed, too, a group near the mantelpiece: I had

      scarcely caught it, and scarcely become aware of a cheerful mingling

      of voices, amongst which I seemed to distinguish the tones of Adele,

      when the door closed.

      I hastened to Mrs. Fairfax's room; there was a fire there too,

      but no candle, and no Mrs. Fairfax. Instead, all alone, sitting

      upright on the rug, and gazing with gravity at the blaze, I beheld a

      great black and white long-haired dog, just like the Gytrash of the

      lane. It was so like it that I went forward and said- 'Pilot,' and the

      thing got up and came to me and snuffed me. I caressed him, and he

      wagged his great tail; but he looked an eerie creature to be alone

      with, and I could not tell whence he had come. I rang the bell, for

      I wanted a candle; and I wanted, too, to get an account of this

      visitant. Leah entered.

      'What dog is this?'

      'He came with master.'

      'With whom?'

      'With master- Mr. Rochester- he is just arrived.'

      'Indeed! and is Mrs. Fairfax with him?'

      'Yes, and Miss Adele; they are in the dining-room, and John is gone

      for a surgeon; for master has had an accident; his horse fell and

      his ankle is sprained.'

      'Did the horse fall in Hay Lane?'

      'Yes, coming down-hill; it slipped on some ice.'

      'Ah! Bring me a candle, will you, Leah?'

      Leah brought it; she entered, followed by Mrs. Fairfax, who

      repeated the news; adding that Mr. Carter the surgeon was come, and

      was now with Mr. Rochester: then she hurried out to give orders

      about tea, and I went upstairs to take off my things.

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